The Confession

The semester has starts. Yes, I am ready, it’s not like I have any other option but to be ready=D

I look forward to classes, I just wish that UiTM isn’t as pack and inconvenience as it is. Pff. WHo am I to complain. UiTM Sentiasa Dihatiku. Honest.=)

If i could choose to take my course from any other universities in Malaysia, I would still choose to be in the Academy of Language Studies, UiTM. It’s not because of the distance, or the facilities, or the fees, or anything of that sort. I would still choose to be here because I see how enthusiastic and how dedicated the lectures in our faculties are. It makes me proud and deeply grateful to be learning from scholars who are highly concern about the students. Even though sometime it seems like we don’t have much to offer. But a lot of the time, it’s their belief and trust in us that  make me think that it is possible and achievable. I have felt this way from the 1st semester, i’m glad I still feel the same way.

In the words of Dr.O ” I believe that, given equal opportunity, everyone can succeed” ( something like this). He means to say that students who put their effort into something, will succeed, we fail only if we deserve to.  I would say that it was also with his support and believe in us that we manage to pass his subjects with flying colors. He used to say ” if you’re not into technology, get into in” which emphasis that I could and should not give any excuse for not doing well in his class.

I may put this on hold, but I am deeply grateful and honored to announce that, all of us ( the technology-un-savy-people-in- a-group..hehe( used to lah)) all 5 of us ( Rina, Kamiel, Abang Japor, Uyun and me) had successfully completed Dr.O subject in semester 4 with an A for our Multimedia Interactive Packaged 2 (MIP2) and Personal Project. Alhamdulillah. I know that there’s others with an A and more talented than us, but our story is( i highly believe), very distinctive from them. We are highly content with the completion of the project. It is our Blood, Sweat, and Tears. I owe you a post  of ‘our story’ on the  backstage of project. No I don’t=p. But I’ll write it down, so that if I live long enough, I may be telling it to my grandchildren.LOL. Kidding.

OK. New semester is exciting, so far. I still am not able to carried out all of my aims this year. I’m waiting to be head over heels with all the subjects=D hehehe. I don’t really like it when people say that I will cope well with business subject because I like to read or because we only have to memorize the facts. I respect it if people say that business subjects are something that you only have to read and memorize.

But in my opinion, knowledge are concepts. Concepts are there to explain situations, to explain reasons for occurrence and how theories work. What i’m trying to say is, we need to understand the concepts that lie behind everything that we study, they are excitingly interrelated. I’d say that, if you understand a concept of a subject, it’ll work like common sense. Memorizing facts would be a breeze if we grasp the concepts. So even though we may forget a term, or a list of steps, we can still recall, because we understand the concept of how the whole things work. It’s really not about memorizing, or defining terms, or endless theories, it’s really about understanding the concepts so that we can apply them. In the word of Dr. Mazli ” internalize the knowledge”, I couldn’t agree more=)

We have already been given 2 assignments and 1 presentation from Dr. Cynthia for our Persuasion and Negotiation class. Adi thinks that I’m gonna do well in this subject, if only she knew how nervous I am despite my high desire to wanting what she said actually come true. =( I only wish that my precision on grammar is a lot better than how it is today. I know I shouldn’t wish for them, I should put on conscious effort to actually achieve it. But HOW?

I am ashamed on how I couldn’t be very sure about my grammar, and how limited I am on my possession of vocabulary. Yes, I am insecure of the fact that I’m not good enough for my Major.   If only I can be as confident as Adi is in using the language. I guess my focus now should also be directed towards achieving the level of proficiency that will make me feel confident enough to be a reference once I’m out in the working world. InsyaAllah.

And owh, before I end this post, I’d just like to say that, I miss seeing Dr. Hawa around APB. I believe all of us( my classmate) miss her. =D The lecturer that I describe as ” An adventure” I still remember that she said she takes it as a compliment that I should say so=)

Safe to say that I welcome the new semester with widely open arms=D

Konvo diploma=)

Can’t wait to be a graduate of  Bachelor Degree of Applied Language Studies ( English for Professional Communication) ( Hons).

I entirely like the experience of learning, not that I’m rushing to anything, it’s just that at this age I feel more than responsible to be able to entirely support myself and contributing to the family as well. I won’t be long until I can achieve financial freedom ( in my dream.LOL). However my friend said ” cepat atau lambat tak menentukan kejayaan seseorang”. Well said, well said=D.

2,222

hehe..bukak blog nie tadi..tetibe nampak Blog Hits 2,222=) cool huh? my sister would love this b’coz she likes number 2 very much. As for me, i’ll be waiting for 3,333…coz i happen to like number 3, not for any particular reason. I like number 3 just b’coz I feel connected to the number, I don’t even know why.LOL. Interesting huh? well at least it’s interesting for me.hehe. N i kindda like number 7 b’coz, when I was in standard 3 if i’m not mistaken, I had to memorize ‘sifir tujuh’, and I did this with my best friend at that time. and it remains as the most memorable Sifir in my history of timetables.LOL. I don’t like numbers as much so I took very little effort to memorize ’em, the rest just come naturally. hehe( kidding)
gud nite fellas…I’ll write my new year aims l8er=D

i have a question.

if u put on facial mask..and it gets so tight on your skin, coz it’s drying, you know how you’re not suppose to move your face or make any expression while the mask is drying, ..here comes the question…what if  we maintain the face expression while applying the mask up until it’s dry…like you could smile the whole time…hahaha. I guess it would be a  good therapy and practice for those out there who don’t know how to smile huh?  hak3

I’m just fooling around, waitin’ for this clay mask to dry so I could get a bath, though I don’t see the point coz I’m totally ‘wangi’ all the time.hehe. there’s actually no point of this post but I just feel like writing, and if I write heavy stuff I’m gonna take more time to explain, and we all know that I’ gonna have to prepare lunch and blah3….and for the lack of better excuse..here’s one=p. LOL

Mr Heykal and Mr Oren

That’s Abg Heykal and Mr Oren. I believe they haven’t been formally introduce. I forgot my manner. LOL. So dearest Abang Heykal isn’t really  a person…like the way I’ve been projecting abt it on my previous posts. Just like ‘kakak’ which is actually a cute V100suzuki skuter..hahaha. Well unlike other girls, I don’t name my teddy bears( they name it? my ‘cummel semgals’ girlfriends did). LOL, but I name these things like they are alive instead. Thank you Abg Heykal for making my trips to school so much easier, Alhamdulillah, Thank you God, I’m just fully glad having Abg Heykal around. I heart Mr Heykal=D

P/S: I’m a reckless driver, and yes I DO mind bad driverss! =p

(Blaja tinggi-tinggi, poyo bertingkat2 boleh..hahaha)

Nervousness

remember when i told you last time that i had a dream and it made me nervous? and the fact that I’ll tell you what i dreamed about once the nervousness was over?…of course you don’t. I almost forget too..LOL.

well, I dreamed of my result for semester 4 of which is i did, not to say badly but in the dream I perform quite low from the previous benchmark. The otherwise happen so alhamdulillah. Thank you God=D. I didn’t do very well but I’m just so glad that with the hectic and busy semester God still help me. Following the result there’s sooo much I wanna write, but will come again later.LOL

A pointer is just a pointer anyway, what is important is the application of knowledge that had been learned and taught. If u wanna judge a student by their pointer, then be my guest! OR DON’T! LOL. I strongly believe that, an indication of understanding and excellence is when we can use and apply the knowledge. You’ll get my my respect on that. So let us work on that shall we.

Knowledge is understanding

Understanding is application

WTH=p

the cousin=)

P/s: congratulation to all on yr result. lets keep on trying to achieve excellence in every aspects. Vote for continuous improvement! AMIN=D hehehe ( tak lawak pown) wink2!

The Birthday Present

inte cam model kan dlm gmbo nie.hik3

…Ini sungguh ‘LAME’….haha..coz my brother’s birthday had passed quite a couple of weeks ago.LOL.

I was having trouble figuring out what to give this lovely brother, since i’m a dear sister..hak3.

thought of giving him a basketball jersey, since he’s a fantastic basketball player, but, he also loves chocolate =)

and so i decided to go for 30 peices of ‘Ferrero Rocher’

and I’ve made a very good choice, alhamdulillah, coz he was so thrilled over it, and u can see it in his expression, priceless!

the thing about Inte is that, he’s not so good in showing emotion with his face, but this time u can really see it, it shows=D hehe. I’m just glad.

actually, i kindda miss having him around the house.

inte is in the middle=)

“Just a nerd with a deceiving wardrobe and a good taste in music”

The title has got everything to do with the post. from when i was young ( back in the diploma in Dungun years) kak Lin always told be that

“almas nie skema, cume pakaian dier tak nampak cam budak skema”

so kak lin repeat that statement again yesterday when we were hanging out along with my sister n kak lina at One Utama (OU). after all of those year of self improvement, ‘nerd’ is still associated to me. WTH. Hell i wasn’t mad, I think it’s funny.hahaha

Well maybe I am a bit innocent with some aspects, but ” skema kah aku?”. You tell me.LOL

Maybe it’s the question i ask? or maybe it’s my realistically-unrealistic way of thinking? Is it the idea of  ‘believing in the good of every person’? or it’s just the way I …pffff….I don’t know.

Good thing my dress help to project a different idea of the ‘self’. Looks can be deceiving my dear friends. Haks!

and if she’d known how soft i’ve grown on the music over the years, I would have lose another mask of the actual ‘nerd’ i am inside.

I’m not a nerd=D  Maybe I’m just Maturely-innocent-but-far-from-naive? Or maybe I’m just being -Nuralmas- =D

And they all live, happily ever after=).kuang3!

Yesterday was a great gathering between, Kak Lin, Kak Lina, and me. thanks to my sister who helped show me the way and accompany me. All i need now is a GPS and the world is in my hands, more than if i hav Celcom. Haha.

19/12/2010- smalam yg best=)

Quotations=)

You know how I’m always referred to by my housemates, classmates, and friends with phrases such as ” workaholic, over-worked, busy” and stuff like that. Of course you don’t know, I’m telling you. haha.

I always wonder, why is it that several things always had to be handled at the same time. And this happen a lot of the time. I have to work my way through to multitasking. ( eleh, cam lah dier sorunk jer multi tasking)..suke ati ak lah kan. LOL.

Sometime I will have assignments to be submitted(student! duh!!), faculty matters to attend to( since I took up the responsibility as director for faculty’s dinner), then helping my father up with company’s matters that I had to make myself available even when I can’t, .then i had to turn down the request of hanging out with my diploma and current friends because of the tight schedule( everyone needs to socialize outside work circle to unwind, okay=p). And regrettably i had to turn down requests of helping out friends in other courses that wanted me to proofread   their thesis or research( of which i really regret because even though I can’t help much, even when my english is not that accurate, I do know that somehow I can correct certain mistakes within my limited knowledge. But hey, you can’t have them all, can you.) Room for improvement need to be entered here..i’ll try harder, InsyAllah.

but the thing is, i always had it in my mind that, there’s something to be learned from all those hectic-ness, in a way, in many ways, it helps me becoming the person and handling the things that I never thought I could. Ok enough with that.

Saying ‘Yes’ to opportunity, saying ‘Yes’ to the task that I don’t know, saying “Yes” to trying, a lot of the times, saying ‘YES’ has helped open up many opportunity.I learn a lot by ‘willingness’ to learn. now it takes a lot more than this to explain what i mean. i guess in a way that’s way the blog is called ” Pragmatic Confession” = hidden meaning implies. Whatever.

The things that I wanna share is the quotations below, it’s just that with experiences, it’s so much easier to understand what all of this smart fellas mean=p

“If you want something done, ask a busy person to do it. The more things you do, the more you can do. ( Lucille Ball)

” I was told over and over again that I would never be successful, that I was not going to be competitive and the technique was simply not going to work. All I could do was shrug and say, ” we’ll just have to see”.” (Dick Fosbury, whose revolutionary high-jumping technique enable him to win an Olympic gold medal in 1968)

” Whenever an individual decides that success has been attain, progress stops” . ( Thomas J. Watson, Jr.)

” The difference between a successful person and others is not the lack of strength, not a lack of knowledge, but rather a lack of will. ( Vince Lombardi)

Whenever you are asked if you can do a job, tell ’em, “Certainly, I can!” Then get busy and find out how to do it.( Theodore Roosevelt)

There is no security on this earth. There is only oppurtunity. ( Douglas MacArthur)

Do not go where the path may lead. Go instead where there is no path and leave a trail. ( Ralph Waldo Emerson).

The first method for estimating the intelligence of a ruler is to look at the men he has around him. ( Niccolo Machiavelli)

There are no mistakes so great as that of being always right. ( Samuel Butler)

Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle” ( Plato)

These are few of my favorite. All of this are taken from the book ‘MBA IN A BOOK’ edited by LESLIE POCKELL.

It’s my father’s but i read it first. yay.LOL. My dream of having the time to myself just to lay around reading books has finally come true. Despite some of other matters to take care of, at least I have that much to spend on reading.

The Book with lots of citation..huhu

edited work for main menu on e-banner for Dr.O's class=)

Good night now. Lots of task are waiting tomorrow.huhu. Hopefully I can fit in time to laze around and read a bit more.LOL

IDK

there are just soo many wedding invitations around the corner. ‘Jodoh’ is always a wonder for me. it could brings up all sort of questions. Love especially is something that i could never figure out yet. Especially the reason why people get married in the first place? ( Despite all the right reasons that we may hear) .

To me, every time i go to a wedding of friends or something, I’m gonna be honest, sometimes it feels like and it looks like, they’re playing     ” main kawin-kawin” LOL. No, i don’t mean it in a bad way at all. seriously,I mean every good intention that I could wish them. And they made the day and celebration seems mildly if not perfectly appealing. With all the dresses, the make up, the flowers, the cake. One hell of a great celebration. Every time I look at them, you know what’s on my mind? ” This would never happen to me, very unlikely”. LOL. even if I think that it will happen, I couldn’t have imagine how it would be.

Don’t get me wrong, I believe in marriage as stated by God, our rightful religion, and as Prophet Muhammad have describe it. somehow it’s still a wonder. Reminiscence of my younger days, i always say ” Kawen itu ibadah”. Hopefully, that’s what we’ll achieve. Kebahagiaan beribadah, in all aspect of life=) LOL. dah, malas da nak tulis, kalu nak merepek mmg boleh jer..hahaha

a collage edited for Dr O's class

don’t you just love the poem? relevant and rather deep something we could very much relate to. right.hehe

Change

Change is what i look for,

Change is what makes me current,

I can’t be on the same spot,

I don’t like to be in the safe side.

Why won’t you understand?,

Leaving is entirely my choice to keep moving on,

It has got nothing to do with you,

Being comfortable makes me blue,

So let me go, and don’t make it personal

If it’s gonna get worst for me after this,

I’ll take my risk,

Every risk that’s gonna teach you, is worth taking,

I understand your need to feel belong,

But I have a need to change that is just as strong,

You got to understand my desire to move on,

Even when it means I’ll leave,

It’ll probably leads us to good,

Not that we have any problem,

It’s just that i need to see things differently,

I need my angle to be of variety,

Coz it makes me happy=)

 

– Well this had been unpublished for quite long-

This was written when my urge to get a new place to stay(rented) in Shah Alam was at it’s highest. I have got another 1 semester to go before practical, but staying at the same place, with the same people torture me. Don’t get me wrong, my housemates are the best people to stay with, that anybody could ever ask for(seriously). And my house are as comfortable and as clean&tidy unlike most of students houses that i know, but somehow, I feel the need to move. Coz i believe that different people give you different insights ( good or bad), and different places means adjustment and survival to fit into the environment. In a way, changes of environment can show you the side of you that you don’t even know existed. Plus, i’m sooo use to changing places in the diploma years that it becomes too addictive. I think something is seriously wrong with me. LOL

kissing the penguin

i-city is no longer a very fun place, now you’ve got to pay to enter!!..LOL. but it could still be fun when you go with fun people. That’s for sure.hehe. Teringat  my days with ‘kakak’.LOL

Digestable post

okay, time of putting my ‘wonderful’ writing on hold is over…why? well i had a terrible dream. pufff..hopefully the otherwise happens, coz it’s not pleasant, even though a dream while you’re sleeping in the evening is hardly a sign. LOL. I was just too tired of dealing with some problem on the house chores. ( another excuse huh?) whatever.

These past few months taught me a LOT. Semester 4 proved to be very challenging. And again, as if previous semester has not taught me of how hectic things could be, I can’t wait for my 5th semester. Haha. I cant wait for the subject of economics, persuasion and negotiation etc. Hopefully the momentum to get to know these subjects ( and others) too maintain or increase. Owh, i should take my research seriously, it’s not that i don’t last semester, it just that i’m always occupied, my mind is hardly at ease.

I’ve committed for a change next semester. I DO NOT want to join anymore of faculty activity, i mean as a committee. Though i don’t mind helping out juniors on areas that i may know. Not because I’m lazy or anything. It’s just that i wanna try something new. Something outside the circle of the faculty or even UiTM. But only if i really get to accomplish it will I write it down here.

Just like in Maslow’s hierarchy  of needs, after our lower needs have been fulfilled, only then can we move to fulfilled your higher needs. But last semester is a test that I learn from. I’ve have had to put my blood, sweat and tears to go through it. And throughout, I have not even once fail to see the miracle and present of God on every occasion.

I know God always wanted me to learn, He always want to teach me to be strong.

Sometime, which is most of the time, it takes so much more that meets the eyes to see the beauty and miraculous things that happen as God’s plan.

You may think, ” If I read the book, and if i know many if the facts, then I’ll score a high mark”.  However, sometimes, that’s not what happen. We’ll in the words of Mokhtar Dhari ” the more you practice, the luckier you get”. I agree. But sometime, when we do something with the right attention, integrity, helpfulness and for all the right reason, InsyAllah, we’ll get back what we give in.

Take for example, you have an exam tomorrow, however, unlike your friends who had the whole night to read, some of your time had to be spend helping out a friend who’s in need for your areas of expertise. And though you are not able to read as much as others do, it may just turn out that you may score more as, it just happen that the areas that you did cover in your reading was the topic that’s being asked in the question. It’s not by chance, or consequences, i believe that it is well planned out. You get what you deserve. And if you don’t, there’s always something to be learned about from the experience. After all, God only want and give the best for you, for only He knows what’s best for us”

And aren’t I just drop dead boring preacher.LOL

Okay, I’ve got myself a new book ” HOW TO SAY IT, AT WORK” of which i have read a few pages out loud before my sister complain about the loud tone of reading, of which i couldn’t care-more-less. LOL.

Books about self-help, motivational, economics, businesses, communication, presentation always interest me. I like something deep and well-thought about. Fiction is acceptable but non-fiction is much  more preferable and appealing to me in this age. ( What age?, well I’m not getting younger, am I.LOL). And I also bought an audio book, Othello by Shakespeare. Aren’t literature just so fascinating? Though I’m bad at it. I used to be good at it, in my secondary school years.LOL

to those book lovers our there, just go to the place call ” Bookxcess” you’ll be extremely thrilled. Thanks to Adilah( the grammar-freak) who introduce this place. I’ll be smiling up to my ears if i go here. Get the book you want with a MUCH LOWER price! I mean it. MUCH LOWER!!!!

http://www.bookxcess.com/

Thank you bookxcess, I LOVE IT!!=)

My intention is to get the whole collection of Malcolm Gladwell books. He is best known for his books The Tipping Point (2000), Blink (2005), Outliers (2008), and What the Dog Saw: And Other Adventures (2009).( Wikipedia.com) ( malas nak taip, amek jer lah kat wiki, LOL). Right now i only have Outliers. I’ve been meaning to get them for a long time, but only yesterday did I found them on sale at bookxcess.  Forgot to mention, the book slod in bookxcess are cheap, new book came out a bit late there. So if you are looking for a brand-new-title book, you gonna have to wait, a bit longer than in regular bookstore. Of which i don’t mind, cause knowledge never gets old. =)

hurm, about the dream that i’ve mention I’ll write it down once the nervousness is over. LOL.

The geek

well, here’s the geek who’s responsible for this terrible post.LOL.WTH=D

P/S: Excuse my spelling error, my incorrect grammar, and my poor sentence structure. This is more like a draft, too lazy to edit.